Consistently inconsistent

I have no idea why I named the post "Consistently Inconsistent". I just think it looks nice and witty.

I have been up for 23 hours now. I just cannot go to sleep right now. I have been on my overnight schedule for over a year now, and it still messes with my body. Since I live on my own, I do not have that extra voice that says "You should go to bed" or "Please don't have another cookie". I guess that is a big reason for the bags under my eyes and the weight gain.

I should have more self-control. Some people are hooked on drugs. Some are hooked on sex. Some are hooked on gambling.

I am hooked on Mexican Coke. In fact, I am having one right now.

*sip* aaaaaaahhhhhh.... mucho refresco...

I have always been the person who gets distracted easily by anything, like music, shiny things or boobs. I always have a hard time keeping focus on the task at hand. I figure writing is a way to keep my mind sharp and alert. Practice makes perfect.

Or maybe this will make me fall asleep faster.

Either way, it can only benefit me.

Sleep is so not over-rated

Songs playing in background while writing:

"Like Dylan in the Movie" -- Belle and Sebastian
"Brick" -- Ben Folds Five
"Lazy Eye" -- Silversun Pickups
"Hey Jealousy" -- Gin Blossoms

I am so fucking tired, but I have to stay for about 4-5 more hours...

I start my new schedule on Monday. I will be moving to 3rd Shift (overnight), and I am excited. This is a big step for me and I cannot wait to really start curing the ills of Windstream customers. But because I had been working 2pm-11pm the past two weeks, I have to start getting my body accustomed to the shift. So, I have to make sure that I stay up until 6-7am today, and then until about 8am the next day.

Last night I was up until about 5ish before I gave in. Thats fine, but I need to be up. Tough it out. It would be easier to do this in NYC, because there are things to do and places to go to. Greenville isn't really known for its 4am hangout spots ...except Wal-Mart and Waffle House, and part of me keeps thinking that just walking around a Wal-Mart at 4am is kind of sad (the other parts of me think that it is incredibly sad).

Hmm... Coffee should help... and maybe a good movie... or a captivating book... start the Great American Novel (even though the only thing I write is this blog. Fuck, maybe not). Need to keep the mind fresh and active.

I can do this. Get your second wind! Tough it out!

*Yawn*

I am screwed.

Should I feel something?

My girlfriend and I decided to end our relationship two weeks ago... and I am not really missing her.

Does that make me an asshole?

I kind of always knew that it wasn't going to last. Right when we started dating, she told me that she was not sure if she was ready to be in a relationship. Well, five months later, and she realized that she just couldn't do it. We had the conversation on the phone, and it initially floored me...

Then I slept on it.

I woke up the next morning without a feeling of loss. I woke up with a feeling of "Well, we gave it a shot. It didn't work out". Should I be more in mourning? Should I act like it bothers me more than it did? This is just confusing.

I feel like just writing what is in my head and heart would be more therapeutic.

Shit... didn't I say my posts would have more dick jokes?

ASS-FUCKING!

Well, It's not really a dick joke, but it should do the trick.

Will probably write more about this at a later time.

Been a while

It has been a long time since I have posted anything.

What I had been doing was dumbing myself down. I figured that if I used Twitter, I just needed to fill 140 characters, instead of the endless space I am afforded on a blog. What that did was make me lazy. Quick-fire responses are ok, but everyone needs to let their mind go for longer than 140 characters. It needs to stretch. It needs to be used.

So, I decided to come back to my long forgotten blog.

I hope it is enjoyable... if not, there will be a smattering of dick jokes to keep everyone entertained.

Easter Sunday part 3

I have about three hours left o my shift. I think that it may be too late to call out sick.

It could be worse...

Wait... Nope... It couldn't.

Easter Sunday part 2

In the middle of watching Super Bowl 42 (Giants-Patriots). That game will alwsy be in my ipod. That and Juno. God, I love that movie. Definately in my top ten.

Off the top of my head, my top ten favorite movies would probably be:

1. The Godfather
2. Shawshank Redemption
3. Constantine
4. Saving Private Ryan
5. The Godfather part 2
6. Brokeback Mountain
7. Juno
8. Office Space
9. Toy Story 2
10. Clerks

Easter Sunday in blog form

I think that a good way to make the time go by faster is to write throughout the day. Anything that comes up. As long as I do not disparage the company I work for (which I wouldn't do anyway).

Let's see how this turns out...